There are links to almost every post for the last 567 days on facebook and twitter, but a little extra effort must be put in to read my words in their entirety. I know people rarely make the effort to push forward into such a post, because I myself rarely do. Over all 567 days I have been fortunate to receive such positive support on facebook, twitter and the posts themselves. It has been fun to watch my blog followers and post likes increase as time goes on. Hopefully this means by helping myself, I am also helping others.
Every once in a while, I read a post on facebook that reminds me why I choose to not write my recovery process directly on my wall. I knew I had a lot of “dirty laundry” that needed to be worked through, but I also knew it needed a contained place that I felt safe. Too often facebook is not safe, it is a place that we all serve as judge and jury with only half the facts.
Once upon a time facebook was a place for keeping in touch with friends at far off colleges, making plans with people across campus and updating your relationship status. Now, our friend lists are galleries of people that we try to only show our perfection, despite the truth of our own misgivings. There are people we follow for the laughs, those we feel obligated to friend and some that we are not quite sure who they are anymore but you know you met them that one time. When scrolling through my feed I sometimes reminisce about what was vs. what is.
Before I serve as judge and jury over my friends I try to remember there are always multiple sides to every story. For mine, I have attempted to be as unbiased as possible, but I know there are many times I failed. This thread of posts, words and pictures remains my safe place away from facebook. I would like to thank each of you for keeping it that way for me. Although my post lately have been far less dramatic, I want to keep my posting habits strong so when I do need to cry through the words I have this soft place to land.
Never forget how powerful words are. They have a great capacity to heal and inspire if you use them right. Think about that next time you sit down to post more than a meme on facebook.
Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.