The holidays have a way of bringing back memories. There was the Thanksgiving we had so much snow we went sledding, and the year we played car bingo and there was no winner (who knew the “Cane is Able” truck drivers would have the week off). So many years of cuddling with new puppies, playing with kids and laughing with family. I love looking back on the wonderful memories and I always look forward to making more each year.
The anticipation of the holidays this year is nothing like I thought they would be a year ago. Instead of thinking of all the good memories from the past I am having a difficult time over looking last year. I was engaged with the wedding months away. It was full of family excitement and the anticipation of a wonderful celebration that never was. Looking back it all feels like I was living in a lie and I had no clue.
Last year on Thanksgiving I took my wedding dress for my Aunt alter. This year I will simply try not to cry.
Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.