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img_5278I have two favorite “not a holiday” holidays. One is Star Wars Day (May the 4th be with you) and the other is Pi (π) day (3.14). Maybe it is a little weird to like these made up holidays, but I think any excuse to make and eat pie or watch Star Wars is worth taking. This year Pi day went great As usual my coworkers thought I was crazy, but they were more than happy to enjoy pie! By the end of the day there was nothing but crumbs left of my beautiful pi day pie, and I was glad.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


Surprise Laughter

On my way back to work from lunch my mind was wandering and I suddenly started to laugh. It took me a short bit to process what my mind thought was so funny, and it was not what you would expect. Honestly, it was not what I expected. Yet there I was giggling to myself on the same route that used to be filled with tears and a brave front.

It is no secret that the week before my wedding was unconventionally stressful. The day before when my family and friends were helping me set up for the wedding that would never be, I ran into my office quickly. I was obviously distraught and very stressed and off handedly said that I would tell them the whole crazy story in a year or so when it became funny. Well, many parts of it just became funny.

I will not be recounting the story here in any farther detail than I already have in the past, but it is now just over a year and I feel an odd sense of peace. That day was like the start of a really bad romance movie (if anyone wants movie rights please let me know), but it was not the end of anything. It was the beginning of everything. I am stronger, wiser and getting better each day. It is unfortunate that sometimes we need to go through unbelievable pain to find our path, but I hope someday when I get where I am going I can look back and smile about how far I have come.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Daylight Savings.

Daylight Savings was originally put into place to give farmers more daylight in the fall and to save money on lamp oil and candles. Now it serves as a way to really mess up my internal clock. My body says it is an hour before the time, and I know it will take at least a week before my body adjusts to the change. You would think an hour is nothing at all, however that hour feels like an eternity at times.

In an ideal world I would have a slow week coming up with plenty of time to relax, and get used to the time difference. However this week will be a busy whirl wind. I have plans almost every evening and busy work schedule as well. Maybe the potential non-stop week will be the perfect way to reprogram my mind, I guess only time will tell.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A creative outlet.

Although I work at a job that I create all day, sometimes I feel like I don’t spent any time being creative. This week for example, I know I have done many creative things at work, but I have not really made anything at all. I love what I do, but I often miss the feel of a paintbrush in my hands and ink under my nails.

In college I took a figure drawing class and we used wet charcoal. It was the messiest medium I think I have ever used. My hands had black streaks on them most of the semester that refused to disappear no matter how much I washed my hands. I am not one to want to go back in time, but sometimes I think about sitting in that class and I wish I could go back to having charcoal streaks engrained in my skin for a short time.

I know it is my own fault for my lack of creative outlet. It is a problem with an easy solution, and right now I like things easy solutions. So much of life is too easily bogged down, but to create with your hands gives you a world of endless possibilities.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A snow filled day.

This week seemed to go by too quickly. As much as I am grateful that it is Friday, a part of me is in disbelief that the work week is already over. Today was a snow filled day, so of course all I wanted to do was stay home cuddled up with a book. When I was able to come home early from work, catching up on my journal and reading were my top two priorities. There are few things better than spending time words while the world outside is covered in white.

Now that the week is done, I am looking forward to the weekend. I have very few plans and feel caught up on things for the most part. Hopefully all this adds up to a restful few days. A part of me really needs some low-key, non-scripted time to reset my jumbled mind. I am not sure what the next few weeks hold, but I will do what I can to put myself in the best possible position to face whatever comes my way.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


For the past few weeks I have had strange dreams almost every night. They are not sad or upsetting, just weird to the point that I wake up feeling confused and unrested. I wish I could pinpoint the exact reason for this issue, but I am at a loss. Maybe my fear of what February held has brought up past emotions that my dreams are filtering out, or it could be rooted in a few stressful weeks at work and will soon dissipate.

It has never been uncommon for me to have bazaar dreams here and there, but typically they are not set on repeat for weeks at a time. Hopefully the outlook of an easy week ahead and the hope of a new month will mean deeper sleep and enjoyable dreams. Crazier things have happened.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A new month.

For the first time in quite a few weeks I am not dreading Monday. That is not to say I am looking forward to going back to work, I am simply not feeling overwhelmed with what I am walking into tomorrow. Maybe it is because by the end of the week we will be in a new month and the anticipation of that fact makes me very happy. I spent a year dreading February and most of that was unfounded, but that does not stop me from being excited to see March come my way.

With March comes the hope of spring and nice weather adventures. The flowers will start to come up and it will be one step closer to open windows and spring breezes. There will be another month of happy mail and hopefully a few surprises. New months are so wonderful and so full of possibility!

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.