A beautiful day in the neighborhood.

This year marks the 50th anniversary of the primer of Mr. Rogers’ Neighborhood and today is the 15th anniversary of Fred Rogers passing. Like so many, as a child I loved Mr. Rogers. He had such a magical tone to his voice that made you feel like he truly cared about you. I remember being shocked when I learned he had passed away in 2003. It felt like my childhood was officially over. I know that sounds a little strange, I was 16 and clearly not a child anymore, but there was something odd about knowing that there would never be new adventures to be had with Mr. Rogers.

Today, a PBS article popped up in my facebook memories from 2015. It is entitled  “Watch Mister Rogers’ heart-warming message to his grownup fans“. The short minute and a half video was filmed a few months before his death and is worded perfectly. As always in his calm voice he gave one last encouraging word to the generations of viewers that he impacted. Each person is unique and different with our own worries and troubles. We all have fears we are facing and struggle to find hope at times. Somehow even at 31 hearing that Mr. Rogers likes me just the way I am brings a tear to my eye and reminds me of how strong I am.

“… I would like to tell you what I often told you when you were much younger. I like you just the way you are. ”

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.



I spent a good chunk of my day reviewing for the CPR class I am teaching tomorrow. Thankfully it went pretty smoothly. It is always encouraging when you are reviewing information that you feel like it is simply a review and not a learning process. My biggest fear when teaching Red Cross classes is making sure I am using the correct terminology, because that is where they likes to trick you on the tests. I would hate to find out in the end that I set my students up for failure due to my own lack of knowledge. Hopefully with my note cards in hand everything will go smoothly.

Each time I teach a Lifeguard or CPR class I am reminded that this is an opportunity that I might not have had if my life had gone down a different path. I have always liked to learn and enjoy teaching in moderation, so my instructor certifications mean a lot to me. Water safety on all levels is important. So whether I am teaching kids how to swim or future lifeguards I feel like I am doing something worth while with my time. I love being able to recognizing the small blessings that came out of tragedy.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Swim lessons.

On Tuesday evenings I teach swim lessons. It is the same class I taught last year and honestly, I was a little nervous to start again. I was not sure how I would feel going back to the old routine that was started when I was in such a different place in my life. There was a few times I almost backed out of teaching it, but I decided to give the first session a try before I backed out.

I am glad I gave it a chance, because it is such a fun set of classes. The kids are so excited to be there and learn. The class is a stepping stone from basic swimming into competitive strokes. My main goal is to teach stroke technique and help encourage them to advance. I have some very talented kids, I wish when I was their age I had been able to take advantage of a class like this.

My first lesson ended up being a private class because only on kid signed up for it. The girl in this class is such fun, at five she is technically too young to be in my class, but she is fantastic. She is slowly developing amazing technique, and the best part is I am not fighting against years of bad habits. This little girl is so excited to swim that she usually is in her suite and ready to go hours before the class. It always make me happy to see her walk though the door.

The second class is a mixed bag of students, but equally as enthusiastic. They are a little older so unfortunately I do have a few years of bad habits to work out of their strokes, but over all they are a clean slate to work with. Most of these kids I taught last year, so it is amazing to be apart of their continued growth.

I look forward to the progress that these class will make this year. I hope I can help them reach the next level of swimming, and I am sure along the way they will teach me a thing or two.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


Over the past few days I have thought of many things that I have thought of before. I have gone over conversations and come up with new witty come backs I should have said. In my head I ranted and raved conversations I would have with him today if I could. I know none of it will get me anywhere, but still day after day I catch myself run through these things in my head.

You never expect to have to defend yourself about your wedding choices and relationship days before the big day. Never would you think that the biggest betrayal would be from the person you thought you would spend your life with. The person who said they love you and want to marry you should never make you feel unwanted.

Although I have come so far there are some things that are still difficult to understand. Truthfully I am not sure there are answers that would satisfy me. Right now God is still working on healing and showing me how to move forward. Someday I hope I can look back on this time in my life and say that this was the time that set me on the path to become who I was meant to be.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Ready to take on the world! 

It is serendipitous that I have a short vacation planned for the end of next week, because I am in need of few days off. The past few months have been a good busy and a roller coaster of emotions. It has worn me down. I had a lot of amazing experiences teaching classes, volunteering and working on some new projects, but it is time to hit a reset button and come back fresh and ready to take on the world!

July has been a crazy month. It started out with many tears, but I feel like I hit a point of strength that I had been building up to. I am 100% sure that difficult days are not gone, but every day is truly feeling easier. For example, this weekend I was asked multiple times how my wedding was and I didn’t cry once when answering. It truly is amazing how strong you can become with time, when you use bad experiences to teach you not harden you.

I am truly looking forward to an August, full of new adventures and hopefully a lot more sleep.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Opened doors.

Whenever I thought about being a teacher someday I always figured it would have something to do with art. So I have been pleasantly surprised with how much I am enjoying teaching Red Cross classes. It is so rewarding to pass on lifesaving skills to others. Over the past few months I have taught 3 lifeguard classes totaling about 40 students and today, a CPR class for 6 future nursing students.

img_0616If the wedding had gone as planned I don’t think I ever would have pursued getting my Lifeguard Instructor Certification and none of this would have been possible. I really count it as one of many doors God opened to show me my streingth and give me confidance. I hope I will be able to continue passing on my knowlage and help others achieve their goals for many years to come. As an instructor there is no greater pleasure than seeing your students pass and feel confidant in their skills.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Stronger and better.

Another weekend over.

The lifeguard class went well. I was a nervous walking into the class Friday because I have known two of the girls who were taking it since they were little. In fact, I baby sat them many years ago. Once I got over the initial nerves it was a lot of fun to teach them. At times it was difficult to remember that they are no longer little girls, and it was wonderful to see what strong, beautiful young women they have grown into.

As an instructor it is encouraging to hear that your students are leaving confident in their skills. Lifeguarding is more than sitting in a chair with a whistle getting a tan. A lot of hard work and time goes into achieving your certification. I hope that none of my students have to use their skills, but I know that they can handle any situation that comes their way.

Teaching has been such a wonderful experience and has been so good for me the past few months. It is important for me to remember that I have many skills and talent that can open unexpected doors in unique ways. True, at the end of a lifeguard class I am extremely exhausted, but I also feel a sense of pride and accomplishment. I hope I leave each of my students stronger and better than they started, because I know that is how they leave me.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.