Onward to summer.

I started off 2017 thinking it would be the best year ever, but not far into spring that theory was already out the window. It still shocks me how quickly things can turn upside down, but I did my best to salvage what was left of spring. Over all I think I did a pretty good job. I ran a couple of races, went hiking and started to pick up the pieces of my broken life.

Now, onward to summer! I already know of a few adventures that I am excited about. With my Empire Pass I plan on spending lots of time in the great outdoors. Hopefully I will be able to challenge myself to be better and stronger. It is so wonderful to look forward to sunny days full of potential.

True, this year is nothing like I thought it would be. In time I hope that I will look back on 2017 and realize that sometimes the best things are the unexpected. After all wonderful things tend happen when we are not looking for them.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

One step at a time.

Over the past few months I have avoided certain things. Things that reminded me of him. Things that we often did together. There are some meals that I refuse to make, some places that are difficult to go, some shows that I refuse to watch. At times it makes me feel weak, like I am unable to stand up for myself, but really it is simply a way to hold back the tears.

Today I faced one of the things I try so hard to avoid. I went for a walk for no real reason but to enjoy the evening. True I have walked home on lunch, and I have gone for a few hikes alone, but this was the first time I walked around town without a purpose on the same paths we once walked together. It was strange to be alone, and unfortunately I did think about him.

At the end of my walk I was proud of myself, because I took one more step outside of my current comfort zone. It is amazing how strong and confident I am becoming. I have challenged myself in so many ways, but it is still difficult to be reminded of him. In time I know everything I avoid now will stop causing pain, but for now I will celebrate my small accomplishments. After all, we can only take one step at a time.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Strong and courageous. 

The theme of my life has been to be strong and courageous. It is one of those phrases that applies to everything we face in our lives, even good things require a little courage. However, I had face every brides worst fear head on, and I did it with as much strength and courage as possible.

Over the past seven weeks there have been many situations I had to face that required being strong. Some days I wanted to stay curled up in a ball and let weakness take over, but I didn’t. I wish I could have left it to someone else to deal with whatever new problem I had to solve, but it was up to me. At some points I had no choice but to be strong, I simply had to push through. There were also times I choose to be strong and stand up for myself, I am particularly proud of these moments.

Being strong is only half the battle when you are rebuilding your life. It takes great courage to move into the great unknown when you are hurting and broken. Thankfully, friends and family were there from the beginning to lend me courage until I found my own. I say it all the time, but I can never express what the support I have been given has meant to me.

For some reason God needed me to be stronger. Someday I will look back and I will have a better understanding of why I had to go through this, God never does anything without a reason. Day by day I am becoming the stronger more courageous person I am meant to be, right now that is all I need to know.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.