Weather.

I am not a fan of storms. As a child I was fearless, so I am not really sure when the dislike started. The chances of actually getting hit by lightning or having a tree fall on you is pretty slim, but it doesn’t stop me from wishing the lightning would go away. My fear must be a creation of my own making, kind of going along the theme of the more you know the more you know you do not know.

Even as an adult I have used the “if I am under the covers nothing can hurt me” method of tricking myself into feeling safe. There is something truly magical about laying in your bed warm and cozy, it is a safe place to face your fears. At the moment I have so many fears I am not sure where to start. I have found a good nights sleep helps me put my best foot forward when staying in bed is not an option.

At some point I will stop dreading the small things that come my way. Someday the fear will start to dissipate. I am not sure I will ever run into a storm, but at least I know I can weather anything that comes my way.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Petrichor.

I have always loved the rain, a steady shower on a warm day makes everything feel fresh and new. It settles the dust and everything smells so good. Many days in past weeks I have wished for the comfort of a spring shower. Instead I was given snow, lots of snow.

img_7380Ironically, it has given me a feeling much like rain does. The snow came so fast that it covered everything in a blanket of white. I woke up Tuesday morning to a winter wonderland. Usually it would throw me into a saddened state to be in the cold and snow, but for once I feel renewed.

Something about a world of white makes me feel like everything is starting fresh. I have felt alone in my new beginning as I watch everyone around me continues on in their lives. As I look out my window I can see a whole world that is starting over again, and it gives me comfort.

I still can’t wait for the first rain, but for now I will accept the snow.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.