Steadfast & thankful week 2

This week had a lot of ups and downs. There were some days it helped to record something that I was thankful for. It was a week that felt like it had too many days in it, yet somehow not enough time. Here is my week 2 round-up for my “steadfast & thankful” challenge.


img_2775Day 6:
It was not a bad Monday, but I definitely had some Monday blues. So when it came to dinner I was thankful for some yummy comfort food.

img_2781Day 7:
I am thankful to live in a country that has so many freedoms.

I voted today.
Did you?

img_2819Day 8:
It’s this pretty girls (approximate) birthday! She has not always been the most well-behaved cat, but I am forever thankful for her “grooming”, head butts, cuddles and unfailing kitty love.

img_2862Day 9:
I’m feeling a little yucky today, but thankfully my coworkers let me go home early. Hopefully with a little extra rest I’ll be ready to take on Friday.

img_2943Day 10:
I am always thankful
for Saturday’s that I
don’t have to set an
alarm for.

Day 11:img_2968
Today is Veteran’s Day, a day that we pay tribute to all those who served.
For the past four years my mom has had her 6th grade students interviewed local veterans who served in a time for war. From these interviews they create videos that are shown on Veterans Day at the local theater. This year the videos featured veterans from WWII and the Korean War.
I am thankful not only for the veterans, but also for the unforgettable experience these kids were given. After all, those who don’t know history are doomed to repeat it.

img_2974Day 12:
It was a little dark at my desk in the evening and I know it will only get worse as the winter goes on. Today I got a not so pretty but very effective light. I am thankful for a bright spot to work and create.


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Forward.

It is a strange feeling when you know that the world is moving forward around you, yet it feels like you are standing still. I am well aware that is not the case, there are many amazing things in my life that are slowly moving me forward. Still the pace feels slow. I wonder if that is always the perspective we have on our own lives. We each watch out lives slowly tick by minute by minute without fully understanding the big picture.

I often wish I could rush forward with more confidence, but I am sad to say I am still a little too wary. My prayer is that slow and steady will win the prize and the strength, courage and confidence I will slowly gain back in the process will help me win in the end.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Grace & Salt ink.

Somewhere in 2014 I came across the talented Rebecca on Instagram. I instantly fell in love with her feed. She posted pictures of her beautiful quilts and other sewing projects. She was also one of the first people to introduce me to Bible journaling, a hobby I have finally taken up after admiring others for so long. Never would I have imagined the path the simple act of following her would be.

In the time since the fated day I followed her, Rebecca has had an adorable daughter and started her own business called Grace & Salt ink. She still makes beautiful things and occasionally posts pictures of sewing projects and Bible journaling, but for the most part Rebecca fills my feed with journals via her business. She makes beautiful leather travel journals that she calls an inkDori and are made for adventure.

img_9857img_2616Currently, I am the proud owner of two of two inkDoris. One I purchased early in my recovery process. It has bumps and bruises showing how well loved it is. I have carried it on all my hiking adventures and it is rarely far away from me. My second inkDori was a prize for winning the Grace & Salt ink’s pocket prayer journal photo contest. It was a huge honor to be recognized by her and I was excited to add to my collection.

Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person”.
Colossians 4:6

Today, I am happy to announce that I am joining the Grace & Salt ink’s brand ambassador team

img_8425Throughout the past months having an inkDori has helped in so many ways. My pocket sized inkDori has turned into a safety blanket that is always by my side. I am so thankful for the strength and courage I have gained from journaling. Needless to say I am excited to join the Grace & Salt ink. team and help spread my love of the brand.

Do you want your own inkDori to document your adventures? Visit Grace & Salt ink’s website to see their amazing selection of inkDoris, notebooks and other journaling tools!


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This tear-stained road.

I still have no clue where this tear-stained road will take me, but where ever it leads will be worth it. I pray every day that the lessons I learn during this time will be able to help others. God never puts us in a situation without a purpose, and most of the time we will never truly understand the reason.

You have never been tempted to sin in any different way than other people. God is faithful. He will not allow you to be tempted more than you can take. But when you are tempted, He will make a way for you to keep from falling into sin.
1 Corinthians 10:13

The tears come slower now and it is amazing how much I have changed. The pain has started to disappear but sometimes I am afraid that the scar it has left behind will never fully be gone. Every day I hope will be able to overcome my fears of the future and be able to seize each opportunity that presents its self. This road may be long, but I will eventually reach a cross-road opening me up to a world of possibilities. I wonder what opportunities will be waiting for me there…

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

War.

Just because you know what side will win the war does not mean you can avoid the battles. There have been many times that I know what the outcome will be, but I have to go through the tears and pain to get to the other side. I knew eventually I would stop crying myself to sleep and the gaping hole in my chest would start to close. In time each battle was won and each win made me stronger.

My constant prayer has been for me to gain strength and courage. To be able to handle the internal pressures and pain with grace, and put on a strong outward appearance. For the most part I have succeeded, with a few exceptions. Sometimes emotions are not meant to be held in.

This week has been an emotional roller coaster for so many reasons and it has left me exhausted and drained. There are multiple people in my life that are hurting and the worst part about it is that there is nothing I can do. There are no words I can say to make everything better, no gift I can give to make up for the pain. I feel so helpless, and I hate it.

What I can do is offer up prayers. This week I feel like I have truly been praying without ceasing. I know this war will be won, and battle after battle prayer will carry us all through with strength and courage we did not know we possessed.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Conversations.

I wish I could stop myself from having conversations with him in my head. Usually they are not very pleasant conversations and are obviously very one-sided. Sometimes they are a replay of what I wish I had said in a specific moment to stand up for myself and say how I really felt. Other times they are words I would like to say to him now. Depending on my mood these are sometimes not very nice things.

There are times I wonder what I would really say if I was given the opportunity. Probably there would be so many things coursing through my brain I would not have a clue where to start. In all honesty during our last conversation I think I did a pretty good job of holding my own. When he asked if it was too late it would have been so easy to say no, but that would not have been the life I was meant to have and I have not regretted my decision.

All I can do is take things one day at a time and continue to pray for the strength and wisdom to get through each day.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

 

A new adventure.

Often God reassures our insecurities in ironic ways. I have toyed with moving forward with an adventure for a month or so, but in the last few weeks I feel like God has been pushing me forward from so many sides. Everything combined has given me a huge amount of confidence and I hope will lead to many exciting things. I spent most of today taking a step in the planning. There is some preparation that needs to be done and more time needs to be invested before I will say too much more.

Right now I would really appreciate prayer. I feel good about what I have done so far and I know deep down this is a path I am meant to take.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.