A book in hand.

I love to read, I always have. There was a time that I never went anywhere without a book, now it is more likely to sit by my bed than leave my apartment. Unfortunately, I find it easy to let too much time pass without a book in hand. There are few tasks that can be done while reading, so I end up having a tv show or movie going while I paint, or cook, or eat. This weekend I tried to make reading a priority. I read myself to sleep, relaxing in my hammock and I even managed to read a few pages while I ate.

One of my New Year’s goals was to read more. We are almost half way through the year and I can sadly say I am not doing so well, but I have not lost hope that I can make reading a habit once again.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

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Outshine.

Too often as an adult life seems like a never-ending line. We pretend like the New Year brings a clean slate, but too quickly we fall into our well established habits forsaking all resolutions and goals. What we are left with is a seemingly endless line of tomorrows that are much like the yesterdays behind us. The seasons, holidays and special occasions pass by, but these things rarely stop everything in their tracks and are usually gone before we can really enjoy them.

A part of me likes the comfort I find in knowing what tomorrow will bring. My alarm will go off, I will drag myself from bed and off to work. There might be a slight variation on the time, but each day is too much the same. I try to find something unique that will make the day stand out, but after a while most days fall back into the sea and are swallowed by the others. Too many of those that remain standing like islands on the horizon are shrouded by dark clouds.

Why is it that sad days hold firm, while the good ones disappear? It seems too easy to mark the days I would rather forget, than enjoy the happy moments of the ordinary. Maybe in time I can adjust my thoughts and let the sun outshine the clouds.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Crazy weeks.

Some weeks at work are beyond exhausting. Most of the time I like what I do, but then there are times that everything happens at the same time and it is overwhelming. Unfortunately, for me this time the madness happened the very first week of the new year. There is nothing like a series of exhausting nine plus hour work days to really challenge each new year resolution and goal you made.

A part of me wants this week to be productive and fly by with speed. Another part says slow down, this is only the beginning enjoy each moment because it will be over before I know it. No matter what time decides to do I am doing my best to stick to my goals and create healthy habits for the year. Hopefully in time they will become second nature to me and even in the crazy weeks yet to come I will stick to them.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

New Year’s resolutions.

Last year when it was time to make New Year’s resolutions and set goals I was busy planning a wedding. There was less than a month and a half left to finish everything and be ready for the big day. RSVP’s were coming in, questions had to be answered and final decisions made. I thought my resolution would be to have a happy first year of marriage, but that would never be.

Although 2017 was nothing like I thought it would be, it ended in pure perfection. It was not a happy first year of marriage, but it was a happy year. There was a balance to things that I will never understand. Every down had a counter balance with a silver lining, and the year ended with me surrounded by friends, laughter and happiness.

My goal for 2018 is to enjoy the simple things. To unplug and take advantage of a broader spectrum of life around me. I have no clue what the year will hold, but I know it will be amazing because that is what I will make it. There will be lots of time with friends and family, beautiful hikes, fun in the sun, books to be read, letters to be written and plenty of time in a hammock. I will make this the best 2018 ever.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A letter to me.

I wanted to start a new tradition for the new year. My friends and I wrote letters to ourselves to open on New Year’s Eve 2018. I made envelopes, brought paper, paper clips, wax seals, pens and my Fuji Instax camera. Each of us sat down and wrote our letters filling the pages with words to our future selves. To be honest, it was a little more difficult than I thought it would be.

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In each letter is an Instax picture of the group I welcomed the New Year in with. No matter where we are on New Year’s Eve 2018 we will have a piece of the evening we had ushering in the year. My prayer is that these letters can encourage each of us when we read them. Maybe they will serve as a reminder of forgotten goals and unfulfilled dreams.

A year is a long time, yet somehow always seems to go by quickly, so my letter is full of encouragement to seize the day. I want it to serve as a reminder of how much changes over a year. I asked my end of 2018 self some questions about the goals I set for myself. I hope knowing the letter is there will help keep me accountable, so when I read it in 365 days I can answer each question with pride at all I have accomplished.

I think it would be wonderful if these letters become a tradition for each of us. Whether we are together next year or not, I hope each person takes the time to sit down read what they wrote to themselves and they write a new one for the year to come.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Steadfast & thankful week 9

I am glad I took the time to do this “Steadfast & thankful” challenge over the past two months. There were many days that were difficult, but thinking of something to be thankful for helped set me in a good direction. I am sure I will still post about being “Steadfast & thankful” every once and a while, after all, it is important to recognize when something good happens, or to take the time to see a light in the darkness. Even when the only light is from a firefly, it brings hope, and that is a very powerful thing.


img_3911-1Day 55:
I am thankful for
happy mail going out…
because it gives hope
of some coming back again.

img_3935Day 56:
I am thankful for days that
I come home to a letter in
my mailbox. Sometimes it
is the happiest part of the day.

img_3940Day 57:
Some days I wake up and can’t get back to sleep, thankful there is always a good book to read. Also, sleeping cats make great book stands.

img_3985Day 58:
Attempting to write a pen pal letter
on my lunch and ended up with an
adorable helper. I’m thankful for
friends to send letters, and cats
who like to cuddle.

Day 59:
No picture for today…
It was a crazy day at work, but I was overwhelmingly thankful for coworkers who stepped up to get things done to make my next week a little bit easier.

img_4085Day 60:
Days spent with friends is the best. I am thankful for people in my life that I can make a suggestion to months ago, and today finally have it become a reality! Trust me, it was well worth the wait.

Day 61:
Today was a good day. I was thankful to spend it with both family and friends. It was truly the best way to end the year.

Happy New Year!

Never truly defeated

As we are in the final sprint of 2017, it is nice to be reminded of what amazing people I have in my life. The plan for today was simple. Hang out with friends and go see Jumanji. We have been looking forward to watching it since we first saw the trailer months ago. What was unexpected was for the movie to be sold out at our original location thereby changing the plans for after the movie. Like with all things the plan change worked out fine, we found another theater that was close to see it and laughed the whole way through. It is by far one of the best movies I have seen in a long time.

Each wonderful memory, like tonight, I have saved up in my mind to remind me that we are never truly defeated. Although much of this year for me has been fighting back negativity and frustration, equal parts were full of uplifting moments full of surprises. In February all I wanted was to some how make it through this year and feel a little bit stronger. It amazes me how much more this year has become and excites me for what 2018 might be.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.