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img_5278I have two favorite “not a holiday” holidays. One is Star Wars Day (May the 4th be with you) and the other is Pi (π) day (3.14). Maybe it is a little weird to like these made up holidays, but I think any excuse to make and eat pie or watch Star Wars is worth taking. This year Pi day went great As usual my coworkers thought I was crazy, but they were more than happy to enjoy pie! By the end of the day there was nothing but crumbs left of my beautiful pi day pie, and I was glad.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


My Valentine’s Day date.

Is it weird to be thankful my friends husband was unable to go out tonight so we were each others Valentine’s Day dates? We both surprised each other with little gifts and enjoyed our movie club movie night. Over all it was the best way to spend the evening.

img_4861Every time my friends husband is unable to go to the movies it ends up being an unforgettable show, and not always in a good way. This time I was glad it was a fantastic movie. If you have never seen”Goodbye Girl” I would highly suggest it. It had all the makings of a perfect Valentine’s Day movie and is defiantly one I would love to see again.

Last Valentine’s Day was sad, this one was amazing. What more could I ask for?

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


Maybe it is a sense of understanding that I am still subconsciously searching for, it is unknown to me. I know understanding is unnecessary and a countdown to someday is a silly thing to want. Yet here I sit typing day after day searching for some kind of magic phrase that brings it all together. Maybe far in the future I will re-read some of these posts and I will be able to tell the day that everything changed, but I doubt it works like that.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

There have been so many days that I think I am past it all, and others that I wonder. I have a feeling that the next eleven days will be a huge hurdle for me. So many times over the past year I have thought what occasions and holidays could have been, but the year mark is the one I have been dreading the most. I wish there were no more tears to cry. I wish I could shut myself down and restart when it has past, but if there is one thing I have learned above all else is that things must be faced head on. I know that I can survive this, because I have made it thought the storm.

Understanding does not bring peace, it just holds knowledge. I already have all the tools I need, I have developed them, honed them and had plenty of practice. This may not be the home stretch, but it is an important part of the race and I will come out victorious.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Birthday week.

This past week I turned 31. The anticipation of my birthday had me quite worried, and of course it was all unfounded. Thanks to my family and friends it was an incredible week. I had some fun surprises, amazing gifts and I worked extra hard last week and the beginning of this week so I could take off Thursday and Friday. All in all, I have very little I can complain about.

Tuesday morning my Aunt and Uncle had flowers sent to my office so I could enjoy them over the week. They are beautiful, colorful and smell so good. Wednesday I got to enjoy an amazing movie with friends and they gave me some fun new watercolors to play with! Thursday and Friday I was able to relax and get some chores done.

img_4522Today was the cherry on the top. I got to spend the day with friends at Strong National Museum of Play. Two of them had never gone before so it was a lot of fun to introduce them to all the fun that the museum held. We played games, visited the butterfly garden and reminisced over toys we played and books we read with over the years.

It has been years since I have been to this particular museum so it was interesting to see what had changed. Most of my old favorites were still there, but we also found a few new things to enjoy. My friends are huge gamers, so they loved playing the pinball machines and old arcade games.

For me the butterfly garden was the best part. Seeing all the flowers, green plants and colorful butterflies was wonderful this time of year when the world outside is grey. There were also so happy koi fish swimming around and a turtle basking in the fake sun. I honestly would have stayed there all day.

Last year I remember thinking after my birthday that it was going to be the best year ever, instead it was the most confusing. This year I am not sure what to expect, but I hope for wonderful adventures, and less tears.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A letter to me.

I wanted to start a new tradition for the new year. My friends and I wrote letters to ourselves to open on New Year’s Eve 2018. I made envelopes, brought paper, paper clips, wax seals, pens and my Fuji Instax camera. Each of us sat down and wrote our letters filling the pages with words to our future selves. To be honest, it was a little more difficult than I thought it would be.


In each letter is an Instax picture of the group I welcomed the New Year in with. No matter where we are on New Year’s Eve 2018 we will have a piece of the evening we had ushering in the year. My prayer is that these letters can encourage each of us when we read them. Maybe they will serve as a reminder of forgotten goals and unfulfilled dreams.

A year is a long time, yet somehow always seems to go by quickly, so my letter is full of encouragement to seize the day. I want it to serve as a reminder of how much changes over a year. I asked my end of 2018 self some questions about the goals I set for myself. I hope knowing the letter is there will help keep me accountable, so when I read it in 365 days I can answer each question with pride at all I have accomplished.

I think it would be wonderful if these letters become a tradition for each of us. Whether we are together next year or not, I hope each person takes the time to sit down read what they wrote to themselves and they write a new one for the year to come.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Steadfast & thankful week 9

I am glad I took the time to do this “Steadfast & thankful” challenge over the past two months. There were many days that were difficult, but thinking of something to be thankful for helped set me in a good direction. I am sure I will still post about being “Steadfast & thankful” every once and a while, after all, it is important to recognize when something good happens, or to take the time to see a light in the darkness. Even when the only light is from a firefly, it brings hope, and that is a very powerful thing.

img_3911-1Day 55:
I am thankful for
happy mail going out…
because it gives hope
of some coming back again.

img_3935Day 56:
I am thankful for days that
I come home to a letter in
my mailbox. Sometimes it
is the happiest part of the day.

img_3940Day 57:
Some days I wake up and can’t get back to sleep, thankful there is always a good book to read. Also, sleeping cats make great book stands.

img_3985Day 58:
Attempting to write a pen pal letter
on my lunch and ended up with an
adorable helper. I’m thankful for
friends to send letters, and cats
who like to cuddle.

Day 59:
No picture for today…
It was a crazy day at work, but I was overwhelmingly thankful for coworkers who stepped up to get things done to make my next week a little bit easier.

img_4085Day 60:
Days spent with friends is the best. I am thankful for people in my life that I can make a suggestion to months ago, and today finally have it become a reality! Trust me, it was well worth the wait.

Day 61:
Today was a good day. I was thankful to spend it with both family and friends. It was truly the best way to end the year.

Happy New Year!

The reason for the season.

img_3899I feel like I should have something profound to say today, but nothing comes to mind. My prayer is that each of you took at the very least a part of this holiday weekend to remember the true reason for the season. It is not about presents under the tree or the weather outside, what it is about is the great joy that Jesus came down to earth knowing what was to come and he made that sacrifice for us.

Whether you celebrated Christmas with your family days ago or have yet to be able to spend time with them I hope you enjoy each minute of it.

Merry Christmas.