Hang in there!

I know by now I should not be surprised when something so simple comes into my life at the perfect moment. Today on my hike I came across a simple rock with the words “Hang in there!” written on it. It was as if it was there just for me. A part of me wanted to take the rock home with me, but I decided a picture was enough and I would leave the words of encouragement for the next person who needed to be reminded that they can get through whatever it is they are dealing with.

Over all I am doing so much better than I could have hoped, but sometimes things still feel like they are too much for me to handle. This weekend was difficult because I had to go through some boxes of wedding decorations. I spent months collecting and making things so everything would be perfect. Sadly many of my favorite things made their way to the garbage, after all, personalized cake toppers and tie clips have little value. I wanted so badly to be able to handle it all without tears, but sometimes no matter how hard you try to hold them back the tears come.

Some days I need to remember that it is alright to simply “Hang in there!”. Better days are coming and I need to do my best to remember that.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

When June turns into July.

At the beginning of June I predicted a busy month, and I was not mistaken. It was every bit as crazy as expected with a few bonus items. Thankfully everything got done that needed to get done. The publication I was most worried about went to press on time and had very few issues. I survived another lifeguard class and came out wiser for the next one.

There were some shining moments scattered in the month. I ran my first 10k, something I never thought I would do. I taught my last swim lesson of the school year, which is still a little bitter-sweet. What I have been most excited about is hiking, in the month of June I did almost 20 miles in State Parks. Hiking has become a wonderful escape from reality, I can’t wait to continue taking advantage of my Empire Pass through the summer.

July is still up in the air. I know I have a few goals I hope to complete and a few habits I would like to perfect. The month will not start as I anticipated, but sometimes we have to take a deep breath and do what needs to be done. I have hight hopes for an amazing month full of adventures and happy thoughts.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Better and stronger.

Hiking was supposed to be my escape, instead almost every time something circles back around to marriage and weddings. One time I ended up taking pictures of a guy proposing, it was very sweet, but it was so difficult to hold it together. Even better, it was at the same place we got engagement pictures taken. As I walked away from them it was difficult to hold back the tears.

Today at the end of my hike there was a wedding about to start. The bride was wearing a dress almost exactly like mine, which is crazy because I did not have a typical wedding dress. Her hair was similar to what I had planned on doing and the brides maids were wearing a color very much like one of mine. Needless to say, I got out of there as fast as I could before I could notice anything else.

I have no clue how I keep walking into these situations. I expect it at work, one of my co-workers is getting married this fall, but seriously, on a hike when I am trying to escape reality for just a little while. Honestly, I am a hopeless romantic. It is great seeing people happy in their coupling, everyone deserves their happily ever after. What hurts the most is being reminded that what I thought I had, turned into a lie.

Maybe someday I will get over the sting caused by other people’s happiness. I try so hard to not be jealous, but sometimes I can not help it. Everyday it gets easier. Every time I see a happy moment I do my best to put it in perspective, and remember that someday maybe that happy moment will be mine. For now I take everything in stride and remember that I am still being made better and stronger.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Onward to summer.

I started off 2017 thinking it would be the best year ever, but not far into spring that theory was already out the window. It still shocks me how quickly things can turn upside down, but I did my best to salvage what was left of spring. Over all I think I did a pretty good job. I ran a couple of races, went hiking and started to pick up the pieces of my broken life.

Now, onward to summer! I already know of a few adventures that I am excited about. With my Empire Pass I plan on spending lots of time in the great outdoors. Hopefully I will be able to challenge myself to be better and stronger. It is so wonderful to look forward to sunny days full of potential.

True, this year is nothing like I thought it would be. In time I hope that I will look back on 2017 and realize that sometimes the best things are the unexpected. After all wonderful things tend happen when we are not looking for them.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Empire Pass

One of my main plans for this summer is to hike, lots of hiking. I decided in the long run it would be a good idea to invest in an Empire Pass. One lump sum for a summer of sunshine and the great outdoors. The past few years I toyed with the idea of getting an Empire Pass, but never did. I must say that knowing that I have a sticker on my car that means I do not have to pay an entrance fee for New York State Parks makes me so excited!

There are two State Parks that are pretty close to me, but maybe as summer rolls by I will try to venture further out. It is so great to know that every weekend I can throw my inkDori, e-reader and hammock in my backpack, head out the door, hit the trails and enjoy. There is nothing better for healing than some fresh air.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.