The obvious.

Too often we look for solutions in the wrong places, but thankfully we have friends that make up the difference. They are able to find the lost car keys that are already in our hands and the sunglasses we are wearing. They find a way to guide us without making us feel like fools and support us despite ourselves. When you are lucky enough to find a person like this, hold on and never let go. Stating the obvious with grace is the most difficult thing to do, but it is also the sign of a true friend.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.


The countdown.

The end of vacation is always a little odd. The last few days you try to get back into normal habits. Going to bed on time, cleaning and putting things away. Sometimes it is a relief to get back to normal, other times you wish you could change everything. Over the past week I have hiked, run, slept in and spent time with family and friends. It was the type of time off that I wish was never-ending because I can never get enough of it.

I have one more day of freedom left, then it will be back to 5:30 am alarms and sitting at a desk all day. Thankfully I only have a little over a month until my next vacation. Let the countdown begin!

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Walking in the dark.

There was a time you could have blindfolded me and I would have known where every root and stone was on the campground. Now that is not so much the case. Tonight I walked in the dark and felt like I was going to trip and fall. I still love every moment I get to spend here, but so much has changed.

Many of the cottages where friends once lived have changed hands and are now occupied by strangers. Where the creek was once deep it is now shallow. It sad to see the things I once did no longer happen, but it is equally wonderful to see new traditions being made.

Although I am sad I can no longer walk fearlessly around in the dark, I am glad the best parts of this place continue to live on generation after generation.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

An unknown handwriting. 

Over the last nine months or so I have received a few requests to be pen pals with someone. Usually when this happens I like to be the first one to send something out, but when my last request came to me I was in the middle of so many things I asked them to start the chain of letters. It was fun to know that eventually I might get something from this new person, but not know when to expect it. After weeks I had thought maybe they changed their mind, but today I got a letter with an unknown handwriting.


It was fun to open a new letter without knowing what I would find inside. What would their handwriting be like? What would they say? Will there be any other goodies?

The answer to all the questions were positive. The handwriting was legible and very teacherly. The letter flowed beautifully and gives me many wonderful ideas to write back about, and inside was beautiful paper squares that I will need to find the perfect project for.

There really is something wonderful about starting a new pen pal relationship.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

A happy ending.

img_6872In September I joined the local Art of Film Club. It was a way to force me out of the house at least once a week and possibly socialize with humans rather than cats. At first I was not completely on board with joining, I was worried I would hate all of the movies and never want to go. I talked two friends into joining with me, at the time they were engaged and closing in on their big day. The bride and I were getting to know each other and were on the verge of possibly becoming friends. The groom and I had known each other, but it had been a long time since we had really spent much time together. Combined the three of us took a leap of faith and we never looked back.

Over the months we watched a little bit of everything. There were movies we had watched before but most we had never heard of. It was an incredibly scary way for me to see Jaws for the first time and an amazing way to fall in love with Singing in the Rain all over again. Week by week and movie by movie the friendship between me and the couple grew, now we hang out many times each week and text almost daily. We have created the most amazing memories centered around this club. There are inside jokes and new favorite movies to go along with friendships that I hope will last a lifetime.

Today walking out of the last movie of the season was so very sad. I was thinking of what movies were my favorites and how grateful I was that I took a chance and joined. Thinking about the mental place I was in back in September compared to now is unbelievable. I cry so much less and smile more. I am building the type of friendships that I wish I always had, and life seems full of potential. I will be sad to not see another old movie on the big screen in the near future, but I do look forward to many movie nights with friends. There are still many memories to make.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

True friends.

About mid way thought the day I was pretty frustrated. Too many times in my life I feel like no matter what do, people run away from my attempts at friendship. Which makes me all the more grateful for the friends I do have.

Through a fun combination of things Wednesday evenings have turned into friend days. A couple that I continue to get closer and closer to and I, do our best to get together at least this one day a week. I have known the husband since we were teenagers, but his wife is a new growing friendship that I deeply cherish. We tell each other stories, good and bad. There are moments we laugh uncontrollably and those we wish we had the words to make each others troubles disappear. Our interests are similar, but thankfully not identical. After all more of the same is rarely fun.

This evening was a girls night. We picked up some froyo and ate it while swinging at a little playground. Then I did one of my favorite things and went for a walk. She is new to the area so I try to wonder where she has never been to give her a better idea of where things are. It is also very fun to get her a little lost and confused, but I always make sure she recognizes a landmark or two.

As we wandered I was reminded once again that the friendships worth having will always come into your life when you least expect it, but need it most. I have few friends and for the most part those I have are far away. But true friends are always together, and thankfully just a phone call, txt or message away.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

The company I kept. 

Today all I wanted to do was stay in bed and be lazy. At the end of a day like that I would have been miserable after wallowing in my own thoughts and emotions, becoming more frustrated with the things I have no control over. Thankfully, I woke up to a text that drove my day down a much different path.

For a week full of hot days, today was a little chilly for my taste, but it was a wonderful day for a hike. I did miss the sun shinning through the leaves casting shadows and warm refreshing breezes, but the company I kept was great. Last summer, despite my best efforts, my hikes were taken alone. A part of that was good because it helped me work through a lot of my thoughts, but I did miss sharing some beautiful trails with a friend. This year I am sure I will still hike alone on and off, but hopefully a few will be with friends.

Today was a beautiful hike, and most of that was because of the company I kept.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.