Sometimes my mind still wanders down a path that leads to that dreaded week last February and I end up dwelling on moments I would rather forget. Conversations run through my head and I am sad to say even after all this time the hurt is overwhelming. The feelings of betrayal and abandonment come back to me, it is times like this the tears come with an unstoppable force.
Words can carry so much more weight than we often give them credit for. Unfortunately, we all use them carelessly at times. Sometimes they cut through us like a hot knife through butter, other times like a dull saw hacking us to bits. Even words that were the sweetest in the moment can sting later on when the truth is revealed.
I guess I should be thankful that these days like this are fewer and fewer as time goes by. With each wave of emotion I know I am working out the hurt that I buried deep inside of me. Hopefully in time these stinging tears will be no more, maybe some day I will never relive that week again.
Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.