So much left to learn.

A few months ago I got a new pair of running shoes. I was so excited to break them in and start putting some miles on them, unfortunately they kill my feet. I have tried to run in them a few times and it always ended badly. I already have an old foot injury that flares up if I am not careful and these shoes are almost an instant trigger.

My goal today was to run approximately 3 miles. In reality I wanted to teleport home when I was barely a mile into my run. I pushed through and ran two miles but ended up walking a little over a half mile at the end. It is so frustrating when you are trying to achieve even a simple goal and are unable to succeed.

Hopefully later this week I will have more success with a run. Lately working out is something that I have not made enough time for, and that needs to change. Sometimes I get so caught up in one thing or another that I forget the importance of balance. Every time I think I have it all figured out, I realize that I really have so much left to learn.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Staying positive.

There are days that staying positive is easy. When I stay busy and have things to look forward to life is good. Currently I am somewhere in between. Every time I think I have hit a balancing point, my balance is knocked off and I find myself back at the beginning. I am very good at keeping myself busy, but sometimes I feel so much pressure to get everything done that I want to that I end up sitting on the couch staring at nothing wishing I was in a more stable place in my life.

After all these months you would think I would have a better handle on things, but sometimes it still feels like everything happened yesterday and I am just as lost as ever. Maybe someday I will not feel quite so confused all the time, but for now I will do my best to keep up with myself and stay positive.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.

Perception.

The days and weeks are going by faster. It is a little scary actually. Weeks ago the hours could not be over soon enough. Sometimes I would look at the time every few minutes confused by how slow the day was. Now, I wish everything would slow down, so I could catch up.

I know that time always moves the same, it is our perception that is different. We find ways to fill up the hours. We go the long way home, or take one more loop around the store before checking out. We pick up another hobby or go to bed a little early. When time moves slowly we find a solution.

There are so many things we can do to fill the long hours, to distract us from unthinkable things. At the end it is all about balance. Sometimes it takes a while to effectively juggle everything we pick up along the way. Eventually we make an art of it, as soon as we have it down it all crumbles and we start over again.

It is never fun to pick up the pieces, but sometimes it is amazing how the pieces come together again. Some past times stronger than ever, and others do not seem to matter like they used to. After a while, there is balance again.

Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.