Sometimes, it would be nice to shut off parts of my brain. I get tired of reliving flashes of moments. Most of them are not bad, actually quite a few are very happy, but then I remember how it all ended and wish I could simply stop thinking.
I have never been a person that wanted to relive a part of my life with the knowledge I gained from an experience, but there have been times this year I wish I could go back to early days in the relationship and stop myself from making the same mistakes again. After the fleeting thought of going back in time, I always remember that there is no way of knowing what problems might have been down other paths. Maybe this heartbreak and recovery is just what I needed to face what the future holds. Besides, even to change my path reliving that time in my life is not worth it.
Tomorrow will be a little bit easier and I will become a stronger me everyday.